Caught In A Bad Romance

A lot of people told me to take this down last night and so I did. But it's back up because that's what I want to potray to my audience is that, if I had kept this peice down.....I wouldn't be being myself. So enjoy!


I just figure in this situation......if boys don't want me to write bad peices about them then THEY SHOULDN'T DO BAD THINGS, THEY SHOULDN'T DO BAD THINGS, THEY SHOULDN'T DO BAD THINGS.....

Well guess what.....a someone did a very bad thing. I've cried my tears and they are all dry now. What I didn't know that the person I was "talking to" turned out to be a complete fake. By the end of it all, I didn't even know who he was, there were so many personalities. And I didn't know "taking things slow" meant that sleeping with other people was a-okay! Especially doing this with a girl who you spoke horribly upon to me. Way to go. Such a great, nice guy.

I don't really feel like wasting anymore time on you but I do want everyone else to know what a douchbag you are.

Don't worry I am long gone out of your life and I am soo much better than this situation, I don't even think you know. Go play on playa. "i have too much going on and my life and have no idea what i want." Wierd, cause I know you told me you wanted me many of times but that's okay I know it was all lies now. "i never meant to hurt you but i told you not to expect too much from me." Don't worry my dear I didn't. After you switched personalities for the 3rd time I was beginning to think that this had to be a joke. And that's exactly what it was.....a joke. But guess what, jokes on you. You slept with another girl in MY friends house with MY friends around. Big mistake buddy, big mistake.

It all comes down to this though. I'm better than you and your childish ways. And I really do wish I knew the name of your ex girlfriend so I could call her and tell her all of the awful things that you said about her. You'll never find anyone like me, as pretty as me, or as smart and talented as me. You really messed up cause I have no use for you anymore. And never will. Grow up please, stop lying because Pittsburgh is small and guess what I hear it all, and most of all STOP TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE. It's so immature it's sickening. You once told me that you wanted to "make all of my dreams come true" hahahahahaha!!!!!! Wow all I got from you were bad dreams. Ohh and just for fun.....you're not that great of a kisser.

To all my readers......his name is ******** and his last name begins with a T. Take a guess. Stay far away girls. You are all too good for him.

Ohh and the best thing I had to get over this were my friends. I love you all so much and thank you. Especially all you boys who said you would beat him up for me. But sorry can't let you do that. You're way to good to get close with someone that can be so mean.

Goodbye

S

"********, I hope you grow a heart because this is not how you treat people."

I Wrote It With Lipstick On The Bathroom Mirror

Hi my loves! Don't have too much time today but while I am here at my favorite spot, the library, I decided to write a short post. I adore this post already and I hope it can help many of you out there when standing in Sephora or the makeup department of Nordstrom and being overwhelmed with all the products. I am a product whore. I buy anything and everything. Most goes unused because if you know me I usually never have a stitch of make up on but for some reason I get a fabulous high when I buy it!

1st you have to have your essentials. These are truly the only things that I usually where and that's why they are must haves:

1. Philosophy's Hope In A Jar moisturiser. It runs around $42 but is a great investment. I tend to break out from here to there and I have to be careful about my moisturizers due to that. This one is PERFECT!

2. Jack Black Intense Therapy Lip Balm in Lemon and Chamomile. BEST lip balm I have ever found. received it as a sample one day and was immediately hooked. MUST HAVE!

3. Bliss Best of Skintentions, all skin types Moisturizer. Love it Love Love it! And not that bad on the price end either. This is what I currently use.

Now on to my top picks for Makeup. Now like I said, I totally do not like to wear makeup, but if I do I love to go all out and these are the best products, in my eyes, to do so.

1. Mac Select Cover Up
2. Make Up Forever foundation in HD (I HATE foundation but this is fabulous!)
3. Make Up Forever HD powder.
4. Eyelash Curler by Shu Uemura
5. Chanel Eyeshadow Palette in #14 mystic eyes
6. Bobbi Brown Gel-Eyeliner(most amazing product I have ever purchased. I would swear my life on it. Comes in almost every color you could imagine and doesn't move once on.)

7. Smashbox Brow Tech (AWESOME!!!!! And this is one of those things you can add to your moisturiser look. Eyebrows are a essential focus point of the face and this product allows you to actually shape your brows, lengthen and arch.)
8. Nars Blush in Orgasm
9. Diorshow Mascara (no words can be said about how wonderful this mascara is. I get asked constantly if I have on fake eyelashes) Favorite Product Ever. I think it's been over 5 years I've been using this so I can officially call myself a Diorshow Whore. Just get it!
10. Bobbi Brown Lipstick in #2 Beige
11. Sephora Professional Angled Eyeliner Brush #23. Best brush I have ever owned. This brush plus Bobbi Brown Gel-Eyeliner=Perfection
12. Diorshow Maximizer Lash Plumping Serum. Use under mascara as a primer and also use before bed and leave it on overnight to help with eyelash growth and strength.
13. Urban Decay Eyeshadows. They are the best in pigment and have a huge wonderful palette of colors for you to choose from.
14. Dolce & Gabbana Lipgloss Glossy #50. Sexiest Nude shade and best gloss you'll ever use. hard to find and pricey but worth it!
15. STILA One Step Correct. Most Amazing (at least for me) Primer with/or without foundation, for the face. Instantly corrects uneven skintones and makes skein feel & LOOK amazing!
16. STILA Smudge Stick Waterproof Eye Liner in Stingray. My eyes are horrible with liner and it goes everywhere. The Bobi Brown is wonderful due to this cause it does not move but for a simple daily liner, THIS IS AMAZING! Doesn't budge! Hands down daily must have. (all Stila products I rate pretty high...also try the Convertable Color pots. T die.
**I usually do not wear foundation although I listed the one that I do own and use when needed. Invest in a good foundation brush. This is key. If you want to skip the foundation(which I do 90% of the time) just cover any dark circles and only cover up blemishes if you much. Your blemishes will heal faster without piling cover up on them. It's not worth it and believe me everyone has zits so who are you trying to impress.

Now onto the body and hair!!!

Bliss anything!
1. Bliss Blood Orange and White Pepper body butter
2. Bliss Blood Orange and White Pepper sugar scrub
3. Bliss Triple Oxygen Instant Energizing Eye Mask(fab!)
Now these run a little high but are worth every penny and last a lot longer because they are good products so you just needs to use tiny amount unlike products you would get at Target. $35-$54

I have fine straight hair so I wouldn't suggest these to those of you who are lucky and have lush think locks. I have tried everything under the sun and these are the best!

1. Aveda Phomollient Styling Foam
2. Aveda Volumizing Tonic
3. Aveda Pure Abundance Hair Potion(like a dry shampoo but for volume. Amazing!
4. Chi Large Round Brush
5. Oscar Blandi Pronto Dry Shampoo
6. Bumble and Bumble Volumizing Shampoo and Conditioner
7. You Curl curling iron without clasp for sexy beachy waves. Infiniti by Conair

Make sure that you clean your makeup brushes on the regular as well. Very important for your skin and your makeup. I use Daily Makeup Brush Cleaner in the spray by Sephora. I hope this post helps you choose the next time you are stuck. If you have any questions about these products, feel free to message me. Yes, they are a bit more pricey but put in that extra $20 and get these of quality. Worth every dime!

Peace and Love
S

Don't You Know Who I Am

Remember My Name.......FAME!

As one of the greatest movies displaying the performing arts and if I can think, the only movie made about a Creative and Performing Arts high school, Fame is at the top of it's game. On Friday a new updated version was presented to the world. Bravo and good work! I went and saw Fame (2009) today and found it hard to sit still I wanted to get up and sing and dance so bad. Just like the original we saw talented actors, dancers, musicians, and singers trying to make there mark on the world and be the best that they can be at their craft. The most relatable and riveting thing about Fame, both versions, are the characters drive and passion for what they are doing. You don't find this much and many never experience it.

I have experienced that sort of drive and insane passion for a craft that if I wasn't the best, I would rather die. It's the greatest feeling in the world. Myself, a former attendee of Pittsburgh's Middle School for the Creative and Performing Arts, and CAPA, aka, Pittsburgh's high school for the Creative and Performing Arts, was a dedicated artist till the end. The movie is basically a duplicate of what these schools are really like. It's a liberal, energetic, passionate place. Everyone is practicing all the time, dancing in the lunch line was normal, busting out in song in an academic class was normal as well. That's just how it was, and I wouldn't have changed it no matter what. It was a magical place where kids could all come together, no one was outcast, and be one. For we all had the same dream. Success.

I don't know if any of you have loved something soo much and if you didn't do it it felt like a part of your soul was missing. I have. And I feel very blessed to have felt that way. If I close my eyes and turn on Tchaikovsky, I can still feel it. I was a dancer, and I was going to be the best god damn dancer in the world! I practiced my craft up to 7 hours a day 7 days a week. But so did all of my friends. We were some dedicated people. I remember my 8th grade graduation show and our choreography was to the song Fame. Myself and another young ballerina, came out towards the end and played the ballerina in the movie. Little did I know 7 years later I would be standing on a Broadway stage jumping up and down because I received a callback to play this character on Broadway. A dream come true(that I royally f'd up by skipping my callback because it was at the same time of my 4th American Idol callback. FML.) The worst about this "performing bug" is that you never lose it. I have been trying to get rid of it for 4 years now and I just can't seem to shake it. I guess when you dedicate yourself to an art since the age of 4 and never leave it's side, it's kind of hard to lose. And maybe it's the fact that, dancing, is really all I've ever known.

This is the biggest run on piece I have ever written but maybe it was important for me to get this out there and get back to where my heart is and do what I am supposed to be doing. Performing is my heart and soul and like I said, it's just not shaking off too well. I really hope all of you have found or have had your passion because it truly is the best feeling in the world. So what were all of your dreams? And if you aren't doing them.......what are you waiting for? Life is to short.

Peace and Love

S